I have to admit that there have been quite a few things that changed around the area since I’ve last weighted myself. And even if most of them seemed like good things at the time, they have all put their amprents on my body. I am now…not just fat, but very fat , with a belly that makes me feel quite ashamed of myself. I tried to keep various types of healthy diets and even stayed hungry for days, just to manage to lose a couple of those pounds that are expecially visible now that the summer is almost here and the war weather is making me sweat and get tired very easily, all because of the extra pounds.
Unfortunatelly, nothing really worked and I am still feeling heavy and unhealthy. I have read the thoughts of many people that say they are happy being fat, that they can live with it and are not affected in any way by it. But I find that very hard to belive, as there are many things the extra pounds interfere with. And I’m not only talking about being ashamed of my figure or not fitting into last year’s wardrope, I’m talking about obvious health problems and the fact that fat people usually don’t feel healthy, just like me. There are times when I am overweight but I must be somewhere within some limits, because I don’t feel the burden of all the unwanted pounds, but other times is just need to start another healthy diet because I am feeling ill again.
But, this time I think that other activities were the ones that made me gain all this weight. Things that I never given the proper importance at the time and that have almost nothing to do with eating. At least not directly, because they’ve managed somehow to interfere with the pound gaining process. After spending a few days reflecting on this, I have managed to list the most important stuff I belive to affect my weight:
- I have work in a way that doesn’t require me to move much
- I don’t have to leave my office at all
- I am usually stressed because I;m always in debts
- I had to work hard on choosing a good buisness prototype that works
- I faild again to create a lot of profit because I focused on helping others
- I usaully give money to family, and this means more money problems
- I do not talk to others about my problems
- I always eat more than one portion, which means I have huge meals
- I do a lot of extra office tasks, and it’s killing my time
- I usually feel the need to eat something sweet and istead of eating fuits I eat chocolate and such
- I’m in my 30’s so if I eat like in the 20’s I’m sure gonna get fatter, as the methbolism is slower now
- I am not an angry person, so I don’t feel the need of working out intenslely just to let out all the hate
- I’m pesimist and tend to have lots of self distructing habits, like eating a lot and often
So, I’m tring to blame my 210 pounds on all these factors. I am planning a trip to the seaside in the late summer, July or August, and I decided to set a realistic weight loss goal, that I intend to achive only by healthy eating and daily excercises. So, till August, 40 pounds. That’s more than easily achivable with any diet, but I’ve decide to try a non-invasive one, that won’t mess up my methbolism more that it’s aleady messed up: I’ll be eating non-processed food in any quantities, and only eat something cooked, like a soup or something at lunch. I’ve heard only best recommendation about this alimentary program, so I’ll be giving it a try.
